Pinkwashing and Other Birdcalls

Our associates now have the option of wearing pronouns on their aprons.
Every hour on the hour the cuckoo chimes.

The workers ignore her like the chirping POS machines and alarms.
The overseers attend meetings in dark rooms and play cis-written PowerPoints on gender and the importance of trans-inclusive language.
The boss who outsourced the slides sits in her office and prints out rainbow posters to hang on the grey lunchroom walls.
None of them have their pronouns on their aprons.
None of them read my tiny corporate pronoun pin with the company logo printed larger than the text.
None of them read the Sharpied on she/her just above my tits.

Our associates now have the option of wearing pronouns on their aprons.
Every hour on the hour the cuckoo chimes.

I use my voice. I advocate. I define. I explain. I simplify.
They thank my deadname. They ignore the training. They tune out the coocoo.
Then they forget and we start over.

Our associates now have the option of wearing pronouns on their aprons.
Every hour on the hour the cuckoo chimes.

I tire. I learn to swallow my words. I become lesser.
Less bothersome. Less of an angry trans woman. Less of myself. Just less.

Our associates now have the option of wearing pronouns on their aprons.
Every hour on the hour the cuckoo chimes.

I spend twenty minutes waiting for the single-stall washroom to clear. The woman inside talks loudly on her phone. She glares at me on her way out. You could have just used the MEN’s room.
My supervisor is mad that I messed up her break schedule. I apologize and use my old initials to sign into my workstation.
She directs a married couple to that GENTLEMAN on till six.
She is bright and talkative. He stares at my purple hair in silence.
Is River a boy’s name or a girl’s name? My son’s fiancé is a River too. I guess it can be a BOY’s name? I don’t judge. Are you sure it’s your name though?
I stare at the clock.
I scan her items and let the register bleep out her words.
The cuckoo and I wait patiently for them to leave.

Our associates now have the option of wearing pronouns on their aprons.
Every hour on the hour the cuckoo chimes.

On lunch, I ask my supervisor to use my pronouns. She gets angry. She storms off. This is all very hard on her. I need to be more understanding.
As a sign of comfort and solidarity, our forklift driver tells me that he wants to fuck his lesbian neighbours. So, you know, I get it MAN.
The poster next to the timesheets talks about gay men, lesbians, and TRANSGENDEREDS rioting at The Stonewall Inn way back in 1969.
The loudspeaker chirps on. In my head, I name the cuckoo Marsha.
She sings her heart out. They ignore her and she pecks at their fucking eyes. Her beak is made of brick. Her plumage is bright and floral.

Our associates now have the option of wearing pronouns on their aprons.
Every hour on the hour the cuckoo chimes.

HouseBreaking

A last-minute publication has been added to The Black Bear Review!

“HouseBreaking” is the second poem of mine to be featured in the publications third issue. If you’ve ever wondered what my creative/poetic process feels like from the inside, this meta-poem is one of many possible answers.

To read this poem or any of the other work featured in the December issue click the link below to below:

The Black Bear Review: HouseBreaking

The Black Bear Review: Ascending Rearward

Predawn Footprints

overhead a slow accumulation
of white drifts on frozen sky
dancing in the air formlessly
fated to sink beneath
black heels, rubber spiked

predawn streetlamps
far less electric
than their daytime cousins
hold close promises of pale slumber

with each breath of frigid air
the snowplowed banks encourage
my breaking of new earth

each heretical footprint
leaving behind ice-blue

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Ascending Rearward

The best holiday present I’ve received so far? It has to be having my poetry featured once again in The Black Bear Review.

The poem “Ascending Rearward” began its conception in the months after my nuclear family lost our matriarch, Helen. I wrote down an early draft of the final stanza last year around this time. I worked on several versions of the poem but was unable to manifest a workable piece. It took over a year of sitting in a cluttered file buried somewhere in the digital scrapheap of my hard drive for the shape of the finished poem to finally manifest.

I am very pleased that the editors of The Black Bear Review chose this piece to be featured. To read this poem or any of the other work featured in the December issue click the link below to below:

The Black Bear Review: Ascending Rearward

THE PRINTED WORD

Somewhere in the stacks
all answers surely lie.

Within these book-lined walls
the printed words appear infallible.

Bound in illustrated manuals
once stamped by printing blocks
— gold foiled.

Dust jacket PhD’s promise wholeness
for the price of $19.99
— softcover.

The storefront clerk offers insight,
assaying each by way of conversation.

For a lust for truth will go un-sated
on pyrite printed letters.


The second issue of The Black Bear review came out last month featuring an appropriately titled poem by yours truly. The magazine is quite literally a work of art with phenomenal displays of colour and artistry alongside the literary works of a great number of talented writers. Some of those writers shared a classroom with me this year, and call me biased, theirs are some of the wittiest and most moving pieces in the collection.

The cover art Guilt Trip by Jesse Stasiuk blew me away. The quality of this first print issue of the magazine itself is superb. I am very proud to have my work featured alongside so many brilliant pieces. Many thanks to everyone involved with the project and Selkirk’s creative writing faculty.

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Freshman Mathematics

Year twenty three;
the third of the First of Four.
The first of the third,
of which the third is three,
was half of half
the same as second.

The fourth,
or should I say
the second Second,
—it’s Two of Four—
now once removed,
though from the First,
year twenty one,
it’s three.

Years Three and Four,
no; five and six,
are variables unknown;
now: c & d.


Due to several stumbling blocks, both within and outside of my control, this has been my third year of first-year university studies. The Elementary Education program which I’m undergoing is supposed to take four years, but I’ll complete it in a mere six! This year I’ve been attending Selkirk College, where I have been able to take Almeda Glenn Miller’s excellent creative writing course. Today I was given an excellence award in the study of creative writing. “Freshman Mathematics” is one of my favourites to come out of the program, and it seems the perfect piece to share in celebration of this milestone.

Morning Reflections

There are a lot of thoughts,

A lot of colours here today;

More so than usual.

I sit on the railed walkway that frames the sea,

Looking out at the vast plains of water,

Dyed crimson by the rising sun.

They allow my eyes to see,

Through their portals, into dreams.

Those silver pathways to the Divine.

An Unexpected Portal

The sands of elemental time,

Flowing into fate.

Starburst of light.

Morning dew glistens on lake-smooth-pebbles.

Mists crawl across shimmering pavement.

An ethereal portal; gateway to Heaven.

Uncertain, but propelled, she slips in.

Timeless light sweeps by.

No stopping now.

The Other calls.

A ringing chant of welcome.

The smell of perfume on morning dew.

Worlds meet at dawn.